I've lost my muchness have I?

I'm feeling different today. I would liken to the feeling someone gets when they were on top of the world and then realized something very very true about themselves. I've been kicked down a notch or two. I can't really say too much here, because it wouldn't be right to display my feelings so blatantly when someone else could get hurt.

I will say that I know that I can't do it. Sometimes you have to know when to say goodbye.

I will say that I love the feeling of this new change. I feel much more myself. I might have lost my muchness for a few weeks, but I found it back. I am more myself now that I have ever been...

It was 8 months yesterday....and I didn't even remember (until just now).